Cheer up! It's already tomorrow!
Friday, August 01, 2008
I was fine all day but I get emo when I'm tired. I'm tired now. And I miss him. And this is the point where I see myself pointing a big finger from above my situation and saying "This is it! The challenge starts here!".
Because there are no problems only challenges. And the challenge here is to keep my promise, to get myself through this without letting him know, without texting him, without phoning him. This is where I really start to let go and feel how painful it is. Letting go of someone you love is a very unnatural thing to do. I am fighting myself right now, waiting for it to get better. No more dragging him down with me.
I hear drops of rain falling outside just when tears start sliding down my face. How symbolic.
Tomorrow I'm moving the boxes out of the apartment and into the storage space I'm renting. It might all be very rough on me. Wish me strength.
