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Saturday, July 26, 2008
I didn't know there was still this much stuff up my nose. That there were more tears. More unfinished feelings in my stomach, my head, my heart. I don't know what it is I want, I don't know when I'd want it and the roller coaster just goes on and on and doesn't let me get off. And I'm too tired to write right now, which is why everything is coming out so dramatically, like I'm really 17, which is what someone told me I look like only yesterday. I'm reading this book and in it this girl goes through a rebirthing process. She relives her whole life trying to grasp at what really happened, starting at the womb. It makes me wonder if I'd understand myself if I'd do that. Not that I ever would.
Mentally I'm fine, I mean thought-wise. I can rationalize almost anything. It's the feelings that still get me lost.
